How often do you hear the phrase, lose weight, and feel great?
What exactly does that mean to you?
I think this is symbolic of the unspoken contentment of letting go of body weight, the flesh. We find contentment believing that losing weight alone will make us feel wholesome. For me, it is a provisional sense of satisfaction that will fade. For me, it is less of looking like what society expects me to resemble and more of finding peace of mind, having control over my thought, and blocking toxicity from my mind.
I am not a big girl, but I am not skinny either. Indeed, I would like to fit in my old medium size dresses without having to stuff myself inside and hold my breath when someone approaches me from the front.
Let us get into it; over a year ago, I realize that losing weight for me means less fitting into a size medium dress and more on the spectrum of mental wellness. Do not get me wrong; I want to be free of constraint, rocking my wardrobe. But I feel like it is uncompromising to be both physically and mentally whole.
Taking away the dead weight from my mind, the people that exploit you, the expectations that I place on myself, the critic I become when I make mistakes, and the expectations that society inherently places on us. You see, it is not until I try to lose that weight that I have started on a journey of true greatness. Please understand that taking care of your mental health is equally or if not more important than taking care of your physical health.
While we may see the effects of the extra cookies, the wines, and the ice cream around our waist, we don’t often see the results of stress, self-torture, and the constant comparison of ourselves to the success of others.
Surely losing weight can be right for you, as is watching what you eat, but that’s not what I’m saying here. I am saying that being skinny didn’t make me happy. Of course, I am not implying that I’m content being on the bigger side of life, but I am focused less on the aesthetic and physical physique and more on my overall wellness. Let us not abandon our mental health, do not be fooled into thinking that I will be great when I’m skinny when I lose weight this year. Let us be great now by practicing mindfulness, giving ourselves credit, and stop overthinking.
It is not until it is too late where the damage has already been done we realize the magnitude of weight on our minds. Eventually, we have started having mental breakdowns, self-hating, or we go into a social recluse. Perhaps for many, it’s too late, and if you are reading this, it is not too late to assess the weight you carry on your mind. Let go of the expectations that stranger have for you, forgive and be kind to yourself, and most importantly, take care of your emotional well-being.