Borderline Chronicles: Double Divided: Mood Swings

Part Four

I know it has been a while since I contributed to the continuance of my blog on borderline personality disorder. I aimed to use real-life experiences to make the blog personable and relatable; yes, I could have made up something, but what’s the learning experience in doing so. I waited until I could get two existing accounts, the next one …Inappropriate, intense anger will follow this blog in a few days. Some of the details I had to omit as they were identifying information, riveting, and protecting the personal data of the persons involved. People with BPD are constantly living in a shifting world; their ideas, responses, and life change rapidly to respond to whatever emotions that they are feeling. It is not surprising that some healthcare providers stigmatize people with BPD because of their shifting moods and changes in value. It can be hard to create and maintain an effective treatment plan to help that person with the personality disorder. To refresh your memory since it has been a while. People with BPD have extreme difficulty than a non-BPD person in their daily life, causing significant distress with day-to-day activities and in their relationship with others. In general, others may have trouble dealing with the personality of people with BPD.

 If you are reading this and you think everyone goes through a mood swing. Yes, that is true. A person with BPD do not go through the standard mood swing; they experience extreme mood swing, characterized by a dramatic shift of mood from a joyful excitement to extreme sadness, distress, humiliation, and irritability.

Age 26

At age 21, with the appropriate diagnosis of Borderline personality disorder, I maintained a semi-normal lifestyle, not before I experience extreme mood swings. This causes me to be expelled from college, prompting me to seek employment in undesirable places until my diagnosis. My therapist helps me understand my diagnosis and get my life in order. I learn to manage my symptoms of depression and anxiety, which causes me to feel guilty, worried, and depressed all the time. I do experience these symptoms to this day; however, they are significantly less apparent due to medications and psychotherapy. I went from feeling cheerful and pleasant, engaging in a friendly conversation with my coworker, to feeling like a cloud of smoke burning in my head one minute at work checking out a customer. These mood swings became debilitated because of the frequency and the intensity. I could understand why I was feeling that way and why my responses were intense to specific situations, and I am relieved to have my emotions regulated.

2 responses to “Borderline Chronicles: Double Divided: Mood Swings”

  1. I am sure I must have BPD. These mood swings are really real. I can say that from experience with myself and others.


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